As of 7am this morning we don't have a vehicle. My husband was driving to work when the camaro broke down on 12 mile road. A very busy road near his job, He got it to start and drove it into the parking lot when it broke down again. One of the security guards gave him a ride to his office building. I called him to find out if he made it to work okay and that was when he told me. So we're now officially screwed. No car for my husband to drive and I hope our kids don't get hurt or sick because we have no way of getting them to the hospital in time. The camaro was having problems overheating. My husband, dad and brother fixed the thermostat yesterday and then Landon took it in to get the radiator flushed. Money that we didn't actually have was spent yesterday on that and what a waste.
I know this is a part of life and a part of life I wouldn't want wished on anyone. I feel as though no matter how hard I have worked or my husband has worked we cannot catch a break. Just when we think we are finally caught up something else happens. First it was our washer, then the dryer, then the van and now the camaro. We're in a bind. We can't pay our rent until the 10th because we had to pay our $600 gas bill. Why is it that high? We live in a 2 story drafty house that is 119 years old and this month with the temperatures in the negatives it has really caught up.
I always try to stay positive. Even with all the bumpy roads of being a special needs parent. I have always looked at my sons special needs in a positive outlook. Maybe that's my downfall. Maybe being positive is the reason nothing goes right in my family. Maybe I should just throw in the towel and say forget it. Someday's I wish I could. But my kids are far too important and thankfully our problems don't effect them. I want them to be kids. Not worry about mom and dad. I grew up in poverty and I always told myself that my kids never would know what its like to worry about no water in the house for months at a time or other problems that my parents worked hard at trying to fix. Raising 6 kids was hard and my mom and dad both worked. When my siblings were old enough they worked too. The only difference is back in the day was so much cheaper to live compared to now. Now everything is going up and with a family of six its hard to keep up. I wish the van didn't break down. I wish the camaro didn't break down. I hope to God that our landlord will be understanding when we tell him we can't pay him until the 10th. If not well.. I guess we will be looking for a house too. Like we can afford to do that. We can't afford to do anything. We're sitting ducks in a tiny pond and I don't know how we're going to get out of it.
Thank you to everyone who has donated to our gofundme page. We're truly thankful for your kindness.
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